tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post7490885718637392958..comments2023-12-13T02:23:37.161-05:00Comments on Baby Rachel's Legacy: Waiting on You, LordRachel's Mamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05085949875951256158noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-71474662632803800822010-12-21T17:14:57.804-05:002010-12-21T17:14:57.804-05:00It does hurt when it feels like the world has move...It does hurt when it feels like the world has moved on and you are still standing still grieving for your daughter. I pray that someone in your life steps out and remembers her with you.Hollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15431384515813384025noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-37090178682826786512010-12-19T09:29:47.143-05:002010-12-19T09:29:47.143-05:00The day of Rachels service..........
On the way to...The day of Rachels service..........<br />On the way to the church I had to stop in the middle of Rochester for a school bus and the crossing guard. I thought to myself that this was a weekday and as I looked around I felt a jolt of anger as I realized the rest of the world is going about their ordinary lives while I was headed to a church to say goodbye to my grand-daughter. I mean - of course they are - but I had not thought about it until that moment. When I saw the line at Dunkin Donuts I thought again about how personal this pain is. When I walked up those stairs in the church and saw that tiny casket I literally felt my heart shatter. There was no more bending in the wind - it simply broke into a million pieces. I wasn't sure at that moment I could bear the pain. I looked around but found no escape. At some point I went downstairs to get a coffee. When I went into the room there were many people mulling around. I heard people catching up on each others lives or making small talk about the weather etc.. I stood there until their small talk faded into a blur. The only thing I could focus on was that tiny casket. So I returned upstairs. It was where I needed to be. Grief is exhausting. I have wondered many times since her service how you, Matt, the kids and everyone who cares about you re-enters the ordinariness of life. Is it even possible? I didn't think so. Then last night we went to Uncle Davids and Lori's. I was looking at their Christmas decorations. They have such a cute house that has such a homey feeling in it. I noticed all the pictures of their kids and extended family. The tree all lit up. The garland, Santa, candles and holly. Then I saw a card with Rachels handprints tucked in the corner of one of the kitchen cabinets. To the left hanging on the edge of the doorway was all the Christmas cards they have received. Nestled in the middle was a page from Rachels service pamphlet. It is the page with a picture of all of you and a photo of just Rachel at the bottom. Under Rachel is "Life is not measured..." I thought to myself that they didn't put these things there because they felt they "had" to or because they thought you would visit and see them. They nestled Rachel in amongst the joy of their lives because she is permanently etched in their hearts and minds. She was, therefore she is. I realized while I was sitting there that we don't need to figure out how to move forward while leaving Rachel behind. We move forward bringing her with us. Because she is in fact part of our collective future, having changed every heart she melted, she has shaped the future of many. Thank you Uncle David and Lori for loving unconditionally within your so very ordinary lives.<br />Love, MomRachelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08680639697554471976noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-63954911628182878492010-12-19T08:36:16.184-05:002010-12-19T08:36:16.184-05:00I just want you to know that I've been praying...I just want you to know that I've been praying since I found out about Rachel. I know the journey, and it is just little things that set you off or that become triggers for you. Passing that due date is a tough hurdle...when everything in you wanted to make it there...and celebrate the birth of your sweet child. I know that you "know" your baby is with Jesus...but somehow...it takes a while to grasp the TRUE JOY of that, because we miss them so much. It just hurts that they're not here. Have hope that it does get better. The way you felt during pregnancy...where the grief was a little less tangible....I feel like it fades back to that point....it's been three months + for me...and it is getting better. But Gosh, do I miss him! I wish he were here. I am praying for your Christmas. The days after. Praying that the Lord would give you the peace that passes all understanding...Brookehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10265876447712229709noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-78456219570846829832010-12-17T09:06:38.730-05:002010-12-17T09:06:38.730-05:00Still thinking of and praying for your family. I ...Still thinking of and praying for your family. I am sorry you do not feel like you are getting the support you need along with the Christmas cards, but glad to hear you have such caring friends as Emily who seem to be inspired how to help in the right ways.Lorahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12514992909586849215noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-31640857828266302442010-12-16T20:22:10.680-05:002010-12-16T20:22:10.680-05:00my first "itfeelslikewe'rereturningtonorm...my first "itfeelslikewe'rereturningtonormal" break down was epic. dave fed me some ambian and put me back to bed at 11am that day. <br /><br />turns out, i left "normal" behind on May 12th, that and my innocence are gone. <br /><br />love you, how awesome is the Lord to provide us encouragement just when we need it?Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17743811595267950388noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-32809408860608818832010-12-16T10:52:26.998-05:002010-12-16T10:52:26.998-05:00I'm just another of the strangers affected by ...I'm just another of the strangers affected by your story. I check your blog daily..several times a day even. Your strength has been so inspiring. I can only imagine what you are going through, but know you have many brothers & sisters in Christ still crying with you. God knew what he was doing when he picked Rachel's family. I will continue to pray for God to lift you up and carry your through this until you are ready to stand on your own. I know he will.<br /><br />Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.<br />~Lamentations 3:23CrzyCaliChkhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04308897139908260024noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-88453728071324718842010-12-16T10:51:18.101-05:002010-12-16T10:51:18.101-05:00Stacy, you have every right to still be sad. I can...Stacy, you have every right to still be sad. I can understand not being into Christmas cards this year. It's not fair that everyone's lives seem to go on while your still grieving. As you said you can't just turn these feelings off. Rachel was your sweet baby girl that was taken too soon, but know she watches her mama from above and loves you very much and knows that you love her. I have not forgotten about Rachel, I think of her everyday. Since I started reading your blog a while back I pray for you all EVERYDAY. You guys are always in my prayers. I am so sorry for all your going through, I can't imagine what it is like to be in your situation. Know that God will carry you through this. When you feel down and alone look to HIM and he will pick you back up and carry you. Just know that I am one person who will not forget your sweet baby girl. <3Stephaniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15294893136338212958noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-88412600855091473062010-12-16T10:32:58.728-05:002010-12-16T10:32:58.728-05:00Hi Stacy,
I have been following your blog since I ...Hi Stacy,<br />I have been following your blog since I read about Rachel on Autumn Green's website, like most I can't even begin to know what you are going through......but there is a woman whose blog I follow; her little son is now in Jesus' arms and I am taking a leap and sharing her address so you can read a post she wrote on his birthday, here it is http://farmlegend.blogspot.com/2010/07/6-years-ago-today.html<br /><br />I have added you and your family to my prayers.Denisehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16939855614446303349noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-99400039966124695.post-63907441133096786972010-12-16T05:11:39.260-05:002010-12-16T05:11:39.260-05:00Oh, Stacey,
I cannot find the right words.
I am...Oh, Stacey, <br /><br />I cannot find the right words.<br /><br />I am so sorry, that you have to go through this.<br /><br />I am sorry, that your little girl is not with you. How could anything be normal!?<br /><br />Thinking of you.<br />Auntie LoloIlonahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16212062901795163176noreply@blogger.com