The Good Stuff

I did hear from the doctor on Tuesday.  I thought he would have new news for me, but all he did was confirm it's a brain aneurysm.  It's not big enough to operate on, so he said we will have a scan in 6 months to remeasure and if it's grown, he will refer me to a neurosurgeon.

He gave me no restrictions at all, which is good, but almost seems wrong...  I think I am going to get a 2nd opinion just so I can stop wondering if this guy doesn't know what he's saying.  I was going to wait until my follow up and then get another opinion based on his plan of action from there, but I was pretty unimpressed with the answers I got to some of my questions, so I will probably do that soon.

The kids & I have had an awesome week.  Our summer started late (post-race) but we are thoroughly enjoying it now!

Yesterday Matt came home saying we were going out for a while and asked what I wanted to do.

"I want to run" I said.

He looked at me sideways and repeated that back to me with confusion....

"Yes, I have wanted to run a 5K since after I had Rachel and between being pregnant or recovering from a baby and now my physical pain, I have only ever done it once on the treadmill and I want to do it.  The doctor said I can do anything I want to and that's what I want to do....."

And he humored me -  LOL - and brought me to the track at the highschool.

Being the overachiever I am, I planned on a mile, but in my head was thinking maybe we could just slam out a 5K on our first shot....  nope, we made it 3 times around the track and there was walking on both ends to warm up and cool down, so we probably only ran 1/4 mile.  But my knees don't hurt today, which is a miracle all in itself!

I'm all done waiting until ___(fill in the blank)___ to do things.  I want to run a 5K and I'm going to while I still can.  I don't know what the future holds and I don't want to have any regrets.  Time is something you can't get back - and wow, it goes fast.

Sam needed a piggy back walking home from gymnastics the other day and Desirae's flip flops were hurting her feet, so I traded her for mine and, wearing flip flops a size too small for me, picked up my boy and carried him until I couldn't carry him anymore.  Both of them felt so loved by these simple things.  That did hurt my knees, but it was worth it.

I've had coffee with friends, long conversations on the phone, sweet time on my knees and in God's Word and all sorts of hugs and kisses from my babies and my husband.  This is the good stuff.

Isn't it just like God to use something hard for my good?  Romans 8:28 was the verse on our wedding favors... and all we knew at that point is we were very unlikely to succeed given our past and where we came from, but we knew that God had brought us to that very moment for a purpose and He would continue to care for us through the less than perfect circumstances bound to eventually come our way.

He always has.  He is now.  And He always will.

 Romans 8:28

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

2 Corinthians 4:16

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day