Had my 39 week check this afternoon. I feel better this week than I did last week, so I wasn't surprised that there was only a little bit of progress made. I'm now just a little over 1 cm dilated and still 80% effaced, but he's moved down a little.
I also want to thank you for your prayers because I feel completely at peace for my VBAC. I was nervous for a long time, but realized that I have not been anxious about it lately at all.
Friday is the day I had originally thought it would be 11/11/11- and had asked you all to pray for :o) But tomorrow is the day I kept feeling like it would be. (I've given my guess on the date, time and his sizes to my friend Lisa so that if I'm right, I have someone who can confirm it :o) ) But either way, I am all set for as soon as he is!! I'd love to wake up tonight in labor! As far as how I feel physically, it doesn't feel like I'm going any time soon though.
Although....yes, I'm about to let the hairdresser in me come out - usually right before I get my hair done, after weeks of saying "I can't stand my hair, I need to get it done", I have a really good hair day and start to second guess if I'm really ready to get my hair done or if I like it just the way it is. It's my fear of change I guess - or at least my fear of not liking the change. But it's always the thought I have the day before my appointment.
Well, driving home, Asa was moving all around. I could feel his little feet through my belly. And, even after the last two weeks of feeling like I'm totally ready to have him and completely done with being pregnant, I thought... maybe I'm gonna miss being pregnant...am I really ready to have him? I could enjoy another week of this. And that's when it dawned on me, with thoughts like this....
Change is right around the corner....
And at the same time I'm going to miss having him in my belly, I'm going to LOVE having him in my arms.
PS - I miss Rachel.
I TOTALLY THOUGHT YOU ALREADY HAD HIM SINCE YOU HADN'T POSTED FOR A FEW DAYS!!! YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE IN MY PRAYERS!!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE PICS OF ASA!
ReplyDeleteI love this post! So Hopeful! I have been praying for you, and thinking of you a lot, both yesterday, and today, and I will continue to do so. And just like I did waiting to hear news of Rachel and see pictures of your beautiful little girl, I pray and wait for news of Asa's safe arrival! I certainly wouldn't expect Asa to magically heal your heart and make the pain of losing Rachel go away - it won't - but I do continue to pray that he will bring you more healing and peace! With love, Always
ReplyDeleteLove this......I thought like Victoria did that you had already had him because you hadn't posted! :)
ReplyDeleteGlad you are feeling so well physically and not worried about your VBAC also. What a blessing!
Will continue to pray for you! Miss you! Love and prayers.....
I was also just thinking earlier today that you might have had him already as you've been quiet.
ReplyDeleteContinuing to pray for you and Asa's arrival. 11/11/11 would be cool!!
So happy to hear you're feeling good about the VBAC.
Been thinking about you a lot!! All the very best hun! xx
I love this post too! I'm so happy to hear that you have found the serenity we've all been praying you'd find with your VBAC. I still think 11/11/11 would be a great day to have a baby. And you know I thought the same thing lol. That you'd already had him too. Good luck to you when it does happen. Praying for a quick, smooth and textbook delivery for you and Asa! Keeping all of you in my heart, thoughts and prayers. BIG hugs, my sweet! <3
ReplyDeleteSo glad you have found the peace that passes understanding. Prayers continuing for you, Asa, and your family of 7! :)
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