I just got an email... Family Life Today is doing their "Weekend to Remember" conference soon... Last year Matt & I had been blessed by some friends to go to the one in Portland, ME - and it was at that conference I found out I was pregnant with Rachel... April 17th... sigh. It was a weekend to remember... one I'll never forget. Didn't realized we'd also spend most of my pregnancy in Portland too...or that she'd be born there because of complications.
Yesterday I called the doctor to ask a question. When the nurse called me back she asked "how old is your baby now?" Um... read my chart lady... (no,didn't say it, I only thought it) what I said was "she passed away... she would have been 5 1/2 weeks."
I also looked through some of her clothes from the hospital tonight... Matt & I sat here holding her little hand and foot molds.... and I smelled her hats and cried. I cannot believe this is really happening to me. she would have been 5 1/2 weeks... sigh...
On August 4, 2010 our hearts broke as we heard the Dr. say "she has anencephaly...these babies don't live" at our 19 wk ultrasound. The Dr. is wrong. Our precious daughter's time on earth may be short, but she will live for eternity with our Lord in heaven. During the few months we have her here with us, we intend to make the most of every second of it. Our hope is that she will leave behind more than a few short memories, but that she will leave a legacy of what it means to hope in Jesus.
Stacy,
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that happened to you! You would think that they would read the charts before returning a call.
I go through Caydens chest and hold and smell his clothes too and just cry. I know it hurts so bad, but it is good to do it.
I am here for you always and praying for you.
Love you,
Chrissy
My heart breaks for you friend. Praying...
ReplyDeleteI still can't believe it either. I have no special words of wisdom. All I can say is I love you and I'm always here for you.
ReplyDeleteLove, Mom