This morning consisted of a few complete emotional breakdowns... all at church... followed by a nice visit with a friend and her kids - we had 9 kids in our house and we still had plenty of time to chat because Matt hung with the kids so we could.
Tonight, I talked to another friend for 3 hours on the phone.... yes, 3 hours straight.... and finally feel like I had the chance to run through what's going on in my mind and heart from all angles without being rushed or given a quick answer. It's such a relief to feel heard and understood. And I do finally feel like God is revealing a lot to me through the pain I'm feeling. I would love it if He would find another way to work in me.... but I feel at peace tonight and I'm pretty sure I know what I need to do - about a few things.
Thank you for praying for me.... I can feel it.