On August 4, 2010 our hearts broke as we heard the Dr. say "she has anencephaly...these babies don't live" at our 19 wk ultrasound. The Dr. is wrong. Our precious daughter's time on earth may be short, but she will live for eternity with our Lord in heaven. During the few months we have her here with us, we intend to make the most of every second of it. Our hope is that she will leave behind more than a few short memories, but that she will leave a legacy of what it means to hope in Jesus.
She is 15 1/2" long and weighs 3 lbs 7 oz... and still was too big for the preemie clothes we bought! So thankfully, Nana got her newborn size clothes for her birthday - which she looks SO cute in.
Thank you for all your prayer... let's see, I'll try to give you the "quick" version and will get more detailed later. Everything as far as my surgery went excellent. The doctor was surprised at how quickly my uterus went back down - apparently that's not likely when you have that much fluid. My pain hasn't even really kicked in yet, so please keep praying for that. During the surgery, I heard the doctor say " can you get me a blanket for my feet?" (she was serious - I could hear my fluid literally spaying and pouring out) and I said "what, you forgot your galoshes?" :o) We actually had a lot of laughter in the OR. God is amazing.
We were blessed with 43 minutes with our girl and have spent the rest of the day throwing her a birthday party, holding her, making memories and praising God for His unbelievable faithfulness to us. Today we experienced the peace that passes understanding in a way I never knew existed. After she passed away, Matt & I were snuggled in with her and waiting for my stitches to be done - and we were just quiet. I hadn't been paying any attention to the music (they had put on contemporary Christian music for us) and my ears...and my heart... caught the end of the song "Word of God speak" It says "I'm finding myself at a loss for words, and the funny thing is, it's OK"
For those of you who got my first email when we informed everyone that Rachel wouldn't live long, you may remember at the end, I asked that people use the Word of God to encourage us because, I said, "the Word of God speaks" - Imagine that, God tied that together too... He knows exactly what I need.
My nurse is the best and the doctor was great. We have had an awesome experience here so far. The kids did really well with Rachel and I just talked to them and they seem to be having a good time at home with Nana, Kim, Auntie and their cousins.
As they were preparing me for surgery, there were a bunch of people in with me before Matt & Meg were able to come in... I asked "Have any of you ever met a baby with anencephaly before?" and they said that Rachel would be the only one they met alive. I said "She's pretty cool...if I do say so myself" The nurse said "well, yeah, look at who she came from" and I said "yeah, straight from God"
She is our gift, straight from God. I don't know what I'm going to do without her, but I am so grateful to have been able to know her. I love her so much.
More pictures coming soon - Kelly Roy from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep spent most of the day here capturing our memories. She got some really nice ones.