Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Not Ready To Say Goodbye

Tomorrow morning is Rachel's memorial service..  I don't want tomorrow to come.  I'm not ready for this.  Please join us for her service.  I've heard that people are questioning if they should come if they don't know us... please do.  We would love to have your support.  We have gotten some of the best support through this trial from people we don't even know.  We would be honored to have everyone who loves her come - and blessed to make new friends through our little girl's life.  It starts at 9 am.

In the meantime, please pray for our hearts...  this makes it all too real.  We're just not ready.  Never will be.

I miss her.


  1. For Rachel Alice Aube From Nana

    If lullabies could heal all rue
    I'd sing a million tunes to you.
    rock-a-bye, & little boy blue,
    you are my sunshine, are a few.

    If a wish upon a star
    could keep you here and not so far,
    A wishing spree is what you'd see,
    I'd hang a wish upon each tree.

    I want to say
    you need to know
    your Nanas love will
    always grow.

    For in my heart
    and through my tears
    I'll hold you close
    throughout the years.

    And in the quiet of the night
    when the moon is out and stars shine bright,
    I'll gently knock on heavens door
    and ask to hold you one moment more.

    I have no doubt,
    I have no fear,
    God will gently
    wipe my tears.

    And in the quiet,
    in the dark,
    he'll place your love
    upon my heart.

    It's not enough
    but it will do
    until in time
    I'll walk with you

  2. I will be thinking of you! ♥

  3. Rachel is such a beautiful baby! I will never forget her! You're faith and relationship with God is inspiring! You're family has touched my heart and I although my heart is heavy with sadness for you it is also full of joy knowing that Rachel will be the vessel that brings so many of us closer to Christ! Thank you for sharing her with us! Today is my birthday...I'm going to blow out an extra candle in memory of your sweet girl :o) May God continue to bless and keep your family strong during this journey...

  4. Praying for the peace that passes understanding today and always.

  5. absolutely praying. would love to give you a wordless hug...and such a beautiful poem.

  6. Praying for you and your family today as always. Wish I were closer so that I could be there. If you ever get down to Va or NC I would love to meet you. I think you and Matt are amazing wonderful people and are an inspiration to us all. God has given you the strength to make the decisions and handle the grief. But most importantly shown you the joy of Rachel and her miraculous life. He will give you the strength to get through today and all the days to follow until you are with your beautiful little girl again. Just remember today is not goodbye it is only until you meet again. She will be dancing in the rain and watching over you all as she listens to Jesus sing her lullabies.

    As Always with love and prayers,

  7. praying for you all this morning! Wish I could be there! All my love <3

  8. Praying for you today and in the days and weeks to come, Stacy. This is the hardest emotional and spiritual work you will likely ever have to do. Jesus is walking right beside you, holding you when you need holding and guiding you every step of the way.

  9. Rachel has touched the hearts of many,many who never new her. I would have liked to be there for you all, however live too far. You are all in my thoughts as Rachel too is in my heart. Oh ya, another note, my husband said he would love to see Rachels playground when it is done, as we will probably see a daughter of a friend of ours play on it.

  10. I just want to tell you that you are such an encouragement and inspiration to me. In the midst of you and your family going through an unimaginable tragedy you still remain faithful to the Lord and your strength is amazing. I have been following your journey and I have truly fallen in love with little Rachel through your writings and photos. She is just beautiful. I can't imagine what you are going through. I pray for you and your family as you say goodbye. I rejoice in the fact that she is now being held by our Lord and I just pray for your continued strength. Your faith is remarkable and you are a great example of a woman of God and through this tragedy you have grabbed the hearts of many and no doubt led people to Christ. Thank you and I send many kisses to baby Rachel and hugs to you and your family!

  11. I pray God will feel you with an amazing and overwhelming peace as you celebrate Rachel's life. It's such a hard thing! HUGS!!

  12. I am so sad to read your posting.
    How could you ever be ready to say goodbye to your own child?! I am so very sorry.

    I would really love to come and join you, but it is too far away from Europe. Unfortunately.

    Do you allow me to reassure you about the one, who will be with you today, tomorrow and forever and ever:
    "And surely I am with you always,
    to the very end of the age."
    Matthew 28

    Wishing I personally could do more for you.
    Auntie Lolo (Berlin, GERMANY)

  13. To my mommy & daddy....
    I did not die young.
    I lived my span of life,
    within your body,
    and within your love.
    There are many
    who have lived long lives,
    and who have not been as loved as me.
    If you would honor me,
    then speak my name,
    and number me among your family.
    If you would honor me,
    then strive to live in love.
    For in that love, I live.
    Never, ever doubt
    that we will meet again.

  14. I will go to mass and adoration now, and I will bring YOU especially.
    Thinking of You and thanking You for everything!
    May HE go on blessing you and giving You deep comfort!
    May the lights of advent keep making bright your darkness!!!!!!!!!!

  15. You may be many miles away, but I will be thinking of your family on this day. You are a strong and beautiful family. Rachel is blessed for all of the things you have done in honor of her :) Many prayers and blessings ♥

  16. Hi,
    A friend directed me to your blog. My heart breaks with yours. We recently adopted a baby very similar to your Rachel... her name was Selah and she lived 55 amazing days.

    My prayers are with you and if you ever want to talk, let me know :)

    If you read my blog, the entries from July 21- Sept 12 document her life :)

    Much love as a sister in Christ,

  17. I wanted to come so badly Stacy, we had co-op classes this morning. Thinking about you SO much.

  18. My thoughts are with you today. <3

  19. Dear Aube Family,

    My heart aches for all of you. I have been praying for you all since I first read your blog back in September. I want you to know that your story and your little girl has touched my heart. Because of you and your strength I have made the decision that I want to start going to church again. I want my family to have a strong faith as your family does. I read your blog daily thank you for being so strong to update it. Rachel is beautiful and will continue to touch many many lives for years to come. I know I have shared your story with many people you have many many prayers for all of you coming from Ohio.

  20. Stacy~ I have been praying for you all all day today as I worked. I pray that the God of all comfort met you there today! Still praying for you as your journey continues.

    Isaiah 44:2~"I am your creator, you were in my care even before you were born."

    Bearing your burden with you.....all our love....

  21. Praying for you sweet Stacy.

  22. Thinking of you all today. What a life Rachel lived...43 minutes filled with LOVE.

  23. Just remember rachel will be holding your hand through the whole thing.

  24. I am so sorry that today is hard. :( I can't even begin to imagine.....

    You have never met me but I would have been at Rachel's service in a heart beat if I could have. I thought of your family all day.

    Wishing you peace and strength <3

  25. Stacy, I would comment under tonight's post, but it will not allow me to. I remember well those nights after saying goodbye to our precious boy how hard it was to find peace, comfort, and rest. We found comfort in knowing God chose him, but some moments that brings no comfort at all. Know that as I go about each and every task of my day that I am holding you up in prayer. Even now as you try to rest, I am praying for Him to give you rest. I will pray for His unspeakable peace so you will get the rest your body needs. (on a side note, I asked my doctor for sleeping pills for that first month just to get me by until I could rest on my own again) My heart is breaking for you and with you. Keep resting in the knowledge that your baby girl is with the best Daddy ever! You will hold her again some day. I know not a day goes by that I don't think of my son Ethan and look forward to meeting him some day. All my love and prayers sent your way.....

  26. Dear Stacey,

    I hope you could somehow fall asleep and have some deep rest without nightmares.

    Thinking of you and little Rachel,
    Auntie Lolo

  27. Praying so hard for you! I only just discovered your blog for your beautiful Rachel. I have no words of wisdom.....only that I know the road you are on because I am on it too. My heart truly aches for you. I hope you get some rest.

  28. A friend posted your blog on facebook, and I have been following it and praying for you since the day you gave birth to your beautiful Rachel. God Bless you and your family. You are in so many prayers now, and will forever be. Thank you for sharing your daughters life and your inspiration with us.


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Thank you! ♥ The Aubes