We're getting prepared to go home. I'm not looking forward to getting back to the day to day stuff and not being able to include her. Excited to see the kids though and to be able to be there for them and talk with them about how they're feeling. This is a hard time for them too.
The night of Rachel's birthday, I woke up at 3 am. I couldn't sleep so I cuddled with her and memorized her little face some more. Around 3:30, I finally started to fall back asleep. I had an experience that I'm sharing reluctantly because I am not one to say "the Lord told me" or "I had a vision" and I don't want it to come across as flippant or that I take things like this lightly. But this was a huge thing that happened and not only do I not want to forget it, but I would love to share it with you... I just don't know that words can do it justice.
So, anyway, I had a vision of Matt kneeling down and I heard him say "what do you want me to do Lord" and then I heard, clear as can be, "Isaiah 47:8" I opened my eyes, and although I figured it was nothing, wanted to look it up before I forgot what it was. I figured it was a familiar verse and was just subconsciously etched in my mind from reading it previously. I couldn't reach my bible, so I woke Matt up and asked him to read it. I didn't tell him why, cause, well I'm not sure at 3:30 in the morning he'd be up for a story. When he read it, my mouth dropped open. this is what it says:
[8 ] Now therefore hear this, you lover of pleasures,who sit securely, who say in your heart,“I am, and there is no one besides me;