Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Reality Strikes Again

Got a letter from the funeral home today... didn't open it right away, was thinking it was a survey or something, which I was happy to fill out since Autumn Green was so great to deal with (if anything to do with a funeral can be great, Autumn Green is) When I finally got around to opening it, it was Rachel's death certificate.  

I had been putting together some pictures of her at the table - surrounded by my memories of her cute little hands, feet, and chubby cheeks, I opened the envelope only to read the worst words I have ever seen in writing...

Certificate of Death...  Rachel Alice Aube...  43 minutes...  Anencephaly

I haven't even received her birth certificate yet. 

I cried... hard...  for a long time.


  1. I am so sorry. Reality strikes like a hot poker sometimes. I am always here for you.

    Love, Mom

  2. There are no words......I am sorry & I am praying.

  3. I'm so sorry Stacy, I've checked every day, multiple times, and wanted to comment on so many of them, but there are just no words to say :( My heart hurts, every day. For you, for me, for our girls. I remember my first christmas without her like it was just yesterday, magnified again this year with my daddy in heaven with her. SO many thoughts and prayers are with you friend.

  4. I'm so sorry Stacy...I think about you and Rachel every day. She is such a special little girl and is so beautiful just like her mumma :) If you ever want to talk or just need a hug or a shoulder to cry on, I'm here. Sending prayers and thoughts your way.
    Love Jessica Marcoux

  5. *Big hugs* Stacy. Please know there are lots of prayers coming from Ohio.

  6. I'm so sorry Momma. Hang on tight.....there are so many people who are thinking of and praying for you. Your little Rachel is alive in so many of us as well. Thank you for sharing her with us. <3


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