So, maybe I'm the only one....
But I have a constant battle in my mind.
The battlefield where I have an ongoing choice and my only true defense is the Truth of my God.
The Truth, that although often doesn't make logical sense, I know with all my being to be real...genuine...everlasting....undefeatable.
Throughout my journey with Rachel, I have had to take many thoughts captive into obedience to Christ. It hasn't always been easy... the thoughts like "You didn't deserve this" - "What good God would make his daughter suffer like this?" "God isn't paying attention, He doesn't see or care about how much this hurts" - "What if the grave is all there is?"
Today I choose again to listen to the Voice of Truth and rely on Him to win the battle. Today I choose again to surrender my wants for His perfect will. Today I choose to believe that the same God who brought me unsurpassable peace as I watched my precious daughter die is here with me. In every ounce of pain. In every tear. I choose to believe that He didn't stay in his grave - and she isn't in hers.
You're not the only one....but.......praise God, He's alive as well as Rachel! <3
ReplyDeleteWhat a thruthful post! May the peace of our Lord be with you while Rachel is dancing in heaven sheltered by God Himself...
ReplyDeleteLove and hugs, anja
That was so beautiful. I loved the song too. I'd never heard it before and it was exactly what I needed.
ReplyDeleteThank you.
Someone recently shared this with me. Reject. Remove. Replace. Reject the thought, statement, (whatever) as a lie. Remove the lie from your thoughts, speech, etc. Replace it with Truth (and that is Truth with a capital "T"). It's not easy, but I've found it helps to have a plan of action when the lies begin to consume me. Thanks for your constant honesty. Helps me to know others think like I do.
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