It is 4 months since we first laid eyes on our precious Rachel Alice Aube.
4 months since we were blessed with 43 minutes with her.
4 months since we had to say goodbye.
4 months since my heart was forever changed by a sweet little girl
who never made a sound.
These past 4 months have been the hardest of my life. The most heart wrenching pain and the deepest sorrow I have ever felt; one I never knew existed... one I hope to never feel again.
These past 4 months have been the most life changing, the most beautiful, the closest I've ever been to God.
I found a strength in Christ that I had never discovered before.
I found a love so unconditional and so deep for my baby that nothing could shake it.
If I could go back to before this journey started, knowing what I know now.. the good, the bad and the ugly... and was given a choice to walk this path, or go an easier one...
I can honestly say that I would not pass up the opportunity
of being Rachel Alice's mama.
It was my pleasure to carry her
It was my pleasure to give birth to her
It was my pleasure to walk her straight to the arms of Jesus
It has been my pleasure to suffer for her, and for God.
I am honored that God chose me
I would do it all over again.
For her, for Him.
And selfishly, for me.
Because seriously, have you looked at her?
|Right before we left to go meet her... I miss the days when she was with me|
I came across this tonight, but noticed that Isaiah's shirt was perfect :o)
Miss you sweet girl