I'm extremely tired these days. Baby is taking everything I have. I'm feeling weary, feels like I been pregnant forever (kinda have) and I have a ways to go (hopefully). I just keep thinking about everything I need to do for the kids and for Rachel's Playground and all I want to do is lay down and sleep....partially because I'm so tired and partially because if I'm sleeping, I don't feel like I'm going to throw up.
The funny thing is that I have what most people would probably consider pretty bad "morning" sickness (that lasts ALL day) but this is actually the easiest pregnancy I've had yet. Normally I don't get a break from the blow-me-over-tiredness and the one-move-and-I-could-puke nausea for about 14 weeks. This time, I usually feel pretty good from after I eat breakfast until around noon and then it hits. I'm good with that, but I have to admit that I feel kind of discouraged with it. I have 3 little ones, homeschooling, and 7 days till we start Rachel's Playground. If it wasn't for her, I would have quit by now... and I wonder daily how I will get through the next week and a half.
Funny how even after all I have been through, I can still worry about how God will take care of me, isn't it? I know He will carry me and help me do what I need to do... but in my humanness, I guess I'm still trying to figure out how to do it on my own. I'll catch on someday.
I still struggle with that Stacey. We are going through health issues in our family. 5 of the 6 of us have lyme disease and have long-term treatment ahead and it has already been going on since last February. It is hard to remember how much God loves us and is in control and can help us with all the big and little issues of life right now. I have a hard time "letting go" of the not-so-important things daily. I know what is most important and yet still can't stop doing the "other things" that I feel have to get done or I haven't done my job that day. God reminded me again today. We had a total of 6 appointments up in Lebanon/Hanover. My daughter had an EKG and met with the Cardiologist and all 5 of us were meeting with the lyme specialist. God helped by expediting the process and all the way around there were good reports. Why I didn't expect this of Him and instead was surprised when that was the outcome I still don't know. Why do we ask for help and then are surprised when He answers? I can't help but think of that verse that talks about if a father would give good things to his child, so much more does God want to do that for us. A good reminder for us all.
ReplyDeletePraying and lots of love coming your way!
Carrie :)
Busy momma! I hope you are able to get some rest. How exciting to start the playground in 7 days.
ReplyDeleteI find myself wondering the same thing, and still am amazed that He seems to continue to carry me.