Change is Right Around the Corner

Had my 39 week check this afternoon.  I feel better this week than I did last week, so I wasn't surprised that there was only a little bit of progress made.  I'm now just a little over 1 cm dilated and still 80% effaced, but he's moved down a little.

I also want to thank you for your prayers because I feel completely at peace for my VBAC.  I was nervous for a long time, but realized that I have not been anxious about it lately at all.

Friday is the day I had originally thought it would be 11/11/11- and had asked you all to pray for :o)  But tomorrow is the day I kept feeling like it would be. (I've given my guess on the date, time and his sizes to my friend Lisa so that if I'm right, I have someone who can confirm it :o) )  But either way, I am all set for as soon as he is!!  I'd love to wake up tonight in labor!  As far as how I feel physically, it doesn't feel like I'm going any time soon though.

Although....yes, I'm about to let the hairdresser in me come out - usually right before I get my hair done, after weeks of saying "I can't stand my hair, I need to get it done", I have a really good hair day and start to second guess if I'm really ready to get my hair done or if I like it just the way it is.  It's my fear of change I guess - or at least my fear of not liking the change.  But it's always the thought I have the day before my appointment.

Well, driving home, Asa was moving all around.  I could feel his little feet through my belly.  And, even after the last two weeks of feeling like I'm totally ready to have him and completely done with being pregnant, I thought...  maybe I'm gonna miss being pregnant...am I really ready to have him?  I could enjoy another week of this.  And that's when it dawned on me, with thoughts like this....

Change is right around the corner....

And at the same time I'm going to miss having him in my belly, I'm going to LOVE having him in my arms.

PS - I miss Rachel.