I had one of those moments today...a few times. Why God? This can't be real...How do I do this? I don't know how to do any of this - and I really can't say I want to know how. It has been a long week. I wish it was a bad dream.
Today I got a book I ordered called "I will carry you - the sacred dance of grief and joy" by Angie Smith. I'll start tonight. I'm carrying Rachel - The Lord's carrying me...2 huge blessings.
This blog is beautiful and so God-honoring. Solideo Gloria.
ReplyDeleteIt seems as though the world has already been parted into pre-ultrasound and post-ultrasound. Priorities clarified and hearts broken in one fell swoop. I don't know how you do this. But I know you won't do this alone. My heart is with you always - as are many others. Love, Mom
ReplyDeleteWell what do you think you have a sister for?? J/K. I am not sure exactly how you are going to do this (that is something I ask myself everyday because I cant even begin to imagine what you are going through). What I do know is that you are probably the strongest person I know (whether you know it or not), and you have a lot of people, me included, that want to be there every step of the way and help you do what you need to do and to do for you what you can't do. I love you more than anything... Meggie :-)
ReplyDeleteStacy....My heart breaks for you and the rest of the family. You will all be in my prayers. This is a beautiful site that you created and I hope that it will bring you some comfort and I do believe that it will. You'll never be alone and I will pray everyday that you get your Miracle.
ReplyDeleteStacy you don't know me, but I know your Mom. I just wanted to write and let you know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers. I can't even imagine what you are going through, and my heart breaks for you. This blog is truly beautiful, and I hope that you will be able to find comfort through it. You are very strong to be able to share this with everyone. I loved this "Our hope is that she will leave behind more than our few short memories of her, but that she will leave a legacy of what it means to hope in Jesus." and I am sure that she will with your help. I will pray for your miracle, and your family. God bless
ReplyDeleteI awoke this morning around 3am. In the fog that comes before complete wakefulness I was smiling, enjoying my dream. In my dream I was watching baby Rachel on the dvd you showed me as she was turning, flipping and kicking. Then the doctors words intruded and my sadness returned. Why I thought does reality always have to hit so hard? Then I remembered what you had told me about another situation - it's all about perspective. I decided that if this, my cherished grandchild could so enjoy her miraculous existence while dancing within the safety of your womb, then I am certainly going to enjoy every moment with her. I pray daily her healing miracle. But for now in the twilight of the morning you'll hear me whisper, dance, baby girl, dance!!
ReplyDeleteMy heart is with all of you, Love, Mom
Thank you for sharing this difficult time in your lives. What a gift to be part of your experience. Please take special care of yourselves during this time and always of course. God is holding you, loving you... God Bless you..
ReplyDeleteLove Always, Bruce and Rebecca