Today is my appt at Maine Med. I'm apparently really nervous cause I'm not feeling so well physically this morning. Please pray that the doctor will lead me correctly and that I will know what to do as far as my decisions for Asa's birth.
This morning feels all too familiar. I haven't been to Maine Med since Rachel and having an all day appt with an all day babysitter (My mom of course!) is way too much like my days waiting for my girl. I'm going alone today - Matt has no time off.... will get to see my boy again though which I'm looking forward to (never thought I'd say that about an ultrasound again!) but I'm nervous about going back there and how I'll feel emotionally.
This morning my sister asked to borrow my video camera today and when I took it out to get it ready, I removed the tape I had in there..... it was labeled "Rachel" and it is empty..... it's the little things that do me in sometimes.
I'll let you know how it goes.... My sweet Samuel just saw me tearing up and rubbed my arm saying "it's okay Mama, don't worry!" in his squeaky little voice.... love my kids.... especially when they're not on window sills :o)
On August 4, 2010 our hearts broke as we heard the Dr. say "she has anencephaly...these babies don't live" at our 19 wk ultrasound. The Dr. is wrong. Our precious daughter's time on earth may be short, but she will live for eternity with our Lord in heaven. During the few months we have her here with us, we intend to make the most of every second of it. Our hope is that she will leave behind more than a few short memories, but that she will leave a legacy of what it means to hope in Jesus.
Covering you in prayers for your appt today Stace, that God's plan for Asa's birth will be clear to you. xx
ReplyDeleteLove it Rachel, kids can be more comforting than adults sometimes. Their open minds and they don't shy away when they see the tears. xx
ReplyDeletePraying for peace as you head to your appt. Four months ago today we lost our second daughter...the little things never stop "doing you in." Thank the Lord for His strength!
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