I woke up and the first thought on my mind was "what day is it...do I need to build anything today?" I got up and was frustrated to find no food for breakfast, no clean clothes to wear and my house absolutely trashed. 3 full 12 hour days out of the house, with three kids, building Rachel's playground left us in a mess here... on Mother's Day.
Just for the record, I am NOT doing it today! :o)
I knew there was a very real possibility that this mother's day could be hard... my first one without my girl... and I wasn't off to a very good start. We proudly wore our "Team Rachel" shirts today in honor of Rachel. It felt good, but as I looked around and realized that nobody else was, I also realized that this is the fact of our lives. The team to build her playground is off duty now... but we're on Rachel's Team for life. That will never end for us. Yesterday was not the grand finale to our trial... we're still trudging the path through grief.
After 1st service at church, Pastor Glen announced the playground and had everyone who helped stand up. Then he had Matt & I stand up and he talked of how many lives Rachel has touched after spending just 43 minutes here with us and he thanked us for how we've walked this path and everyone stood up and clapped. Matt leaned in and whispered "good job, Mama" to me... I cried of course, but I'll tell you what, that little girl has caused me to be the kind of Mama I'm proud to be. One that I know God is pleased with. I'm so grateful for her.
Des came out of Children's Church with a paper that had a rainbow on it - and of course, I looked to see... it talked about Noah being blessed for his obedience... and then she handed me the project they did...Noah's Ark magnets with the verse: We walk by faith not by sight - 2 Cor. 5:7 (the verse we put on Rachel's shower cake and invites) I thought that the teacher must have picked Noah's Ark because of the playground - until I saw her downstairs and she pulled me aside to tell me how she couldn't believe that is the lesson we were on! And sure enough, when we went to teach 2nd service, we found out that this lesson landed on this week from the plan that was picked at the beginning of the year - long before we ever even knew the playground would be here now! Last week it was "follow God's plan for your life" and talked about how when you're building something you need to follow the building plans! This week, the theme "Obey God above everything else" and the story of Noah... and the blessing he received from his obedience. The EXACT reason I picked an ark for Rachel's Playground to begin with! God is amazing.
After service, we had everyone gather around the entry and we prayed together and then I cut the "ribbon" and all the kids RAN in! (Great idea, Pete!) It was an awesome feeling watching all the kids get so excited. Especially mine :o)
♥Rachel Alice Aube♥ (just felt like saying her name) :o)
|The boys playing the music wall|
|Des sliding with Sam|
|This slide is so big, there is no such thing as waiting in line!|
|No, these aren't kids... this is my aunt Kathy and her husband Dave (who helped this weekend). |
They stopped by after church to see Rachel's Playground - and play!
Just because you can't see something, doesn't mean it isn't there!
Two things that bless me about Amanda's statement are that she called it "Rachel's" rainbow - and that when she noticed it, she thought of her. The same thing about Cheryl noticing the lesson plan... I LOVE how people are seeing God in the details of life because of my girl. I am humbled that He continues to reveal Himself and that people are aware of it through Rachel. Thank You Lord for that...
I also was given some beautiful flowers this morning from Naomi... I saw them and commented on how pretty they were and she handed them to me! The note said that when I said that I planned to keep fresh flowers in my house in memory of Rachel (which by the way, I have not failed to do since she died - even while we were in Florida!) she decided that she would give me her first blooms... Pink and Red tulips "and they 'just happened' to be on Mother's Day" she said :o)
Matt & the kids took me out for lunch and we get home from church, the tulips that I planted with Rachel that I have waited a couple of weeks for (after the 1st ones on the other side of the house) were all pink. I had told Harlee last week that they weren't doing anything and that I bet they would bloom for me on Mother's Day... and sure enough...we left for church and they were still closed. We came home to pink everywhere!
|You can see in the back there are some still closed and not pink... |
that is what these looked like this morning!