Thursday, November 11, 2010

My long-term plan

I made it through the night...and actually slept pretty well.  I just got up, but so far no cramping.  I'm going to need to take it easy.  I think between the Maine appt and the stuff I did at home, I pushed myself too much yesterday.  I guess I'm going to take that medication because I really don't want this to keep happening... I think the benefits outweigh the risks right now since it's also something they use to stop early labor.  So it will help with the fluid and keep early labor from happening.  But there are risks to Rachel that, although the Dr. isn't worried about, I am.  He's not worried because he said it would only matter to a baby "long term and we're not worried about long term with her" - His idea of long term might be different than mine.  I want to take her home from the hospital with me and that would be my idea of long term.  I don't want her carried out by someone else in a box.  His idea of long term is a "normal" life time.  Will taking this medication affect my long-term plan??  There's no way to know.  

The things I'm worried about are that it makes her pee less which is what slows the fluid build-up, but that must affect her kidneys and it affects her ductus arteriosus in her heart which will affect blood circulation and makes her lungs work harder than they should.  Right now her heart, kidneys and lungs are strong... I don't want to mess with them.  I did read though that if taken for less than 7 days, it doesn't usually show any side effects to the baby.  Since I've been off of it for a couple of weeks and only took it for a week last time, I think I'm safe to take it for 7 days again - and hopefully that will buy me enough time to make it through the last 2 weeks until her birthday...  I hate this.  I hate that my long-term plan for my baby is 3 weeks and 4 days - and that is with taking 3 weeks off of my original "plan".


  1. You are such a good mama... always thinking of your children first. I'm glad you made it through the night! I find myself so drawn to you. I check your blog several times a day. I'm praying that everything works out in the best possible way for you.

  2. I am so thankful for your update. I've been thinking of you and praying for you and won't stop!! Hugs! Michelle Hynes


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