I bought a bunch of pink tulip bulbs weeks ago that I wanted to plant in Rachel's memory...however, I'm in no condition for gardening (which I find rather frustrating) and I haven't been able to talk anyone into helping me - except my awesome husband, who came home early from job#1 to dig a new flower bed for me and move my other plants around to places they'd be happier - all before going to job #2 for the night. I might be the most blessed woman alive. He always thought I was making it up when I said my "love language" was when he helped me in the yard, but I'm tellin' you, I felt loved.
So, today Isaiah & I went out and planted 75 tulips in the yard in honor of Rachel. I know come the spring, I will be glad they're there. I thought I had bought 85 (we'll blame that on pregnancy) so I have a few more holes I need to fill. I also plan to plant a few at her grave so she'll have some there too. They're called "pink impressions" - which I found cool since I love my little gift that says "sometimes the smallest gifts leave the biggest impression".
As I planted them, I told Rachel what I was doing... I thought she should know where I get my determination - even though I'm gigantic, exhausted and in pain... it's all for her. I wish I could be planting something that she'll someday enjoy with me and the kids... instead of as a memorial. I guess this is making the most out of a tough situation at it's best. After I told her about the flowers I told her "every year when they come up, I'm sure I'll smile...and cry too."
Awww - my mom commented :-)
ReplyDeleteShe picked out the bleeding heart the weekend before we had *the* ultrasound...crazy how God was preparing all of us in advance.
I really wanted to comment and say that you get 1000 points for gardening at 30whatever weeks pregnant. I tried to do some yard at like 9 weeks pregnant and couldn't hang. I know you will love those flowers and not even remember the discomfort you felt in planting them.