|Soli Deo Gloria - "Glory to God alone" |
(It's the name we gave our homeschool so that I keep proper perspective on why I'm doing this...)
When I made the chores section, I didn't make boxes for each child cause I was hoping to add another baby to our family and I wanted enough space for them all.
November was a hard month...physically, emotionally, mentally... my dr. appt's were all day events and they were constant. I could hardly keep up with life...but Rachel was here. *sigh* We really did wait for her with hopeful expectation...even though things were hard. I'm so grateful for that. A few people have questioned me "your calendar still says November?" I just nod, smile and say..."yeah" - I know they think I just haven't gotten around to it... nope. I look at it every day, I've debated changing it to December, January, and now February... but can't. She was with me in November.
I wonder if I'll ever be able to erase this board.... I know my "baby loss Mama" friends get this. but I really don't want to take her name, or time spent with her, off of my calendar. I actually kept my regular calendar from last year and put it in her memory box.
I'd love to go back to November... my heart is still there.